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“I have always been curious about the way you would love.”

I don’t know if this is something I should be worried about.
The double standard here is my fault. If something else would have fallen in my lap, the temptation to take advantage of it would have been too much for me to resist.
But I am here now. I haven’t had much time to meander away from the high expectations I have set for myself.
I am knocked up. What other shenanigans could I get myself into?
But I haven’t strayed. I have managed to maintain my composure and I don’t know what is compelling me to remind you to do the same.
I am not one of those girls. I am not the type to always remind you of what a catch I am because honestly…I am not really that much of a catch.
I am not going to worry and obsess over things that are out of my control.
That’s a lie. I will obsess, but at least I am smart enough to know that the little things that I can obsess over are not important. I let so much slide.
I want to tell you that I am threatened by her appearance. I want you to know that I find it awfully convenient that she just happened to get back into town and you didn’t tell me that until now. Convenient for you I chose not to attend this “social gathering” and you sounded almost pleased to heat me decline the invitation.
I am turning the other cheek and I will ignore the fact that you will be alone with her tonight.
I am going to turn a deaf ear to the voices in my head that are creating the nastiest of suspicions.
I am not going to fall asleep to the thoughts of you bringing this someone into my house.
I am going to give you the benefit of the doubt and hope that you’re not that stupid.